November Rain (Explicit)

I still choke a little

Every time your name comes up

Hold my tearsOnce they fall oh

Cause I can't make em stop

I put pressure on my wrist

Cause my arms cant stop shaking

It's been a decade since u left

Still you be reappearing

In my dreams

In my sleep

In my lyrics

I'm afraid

To put them out

Cause it feels

I'm closing up your chapter

But I'm not

Not prepared

To let you go

Too much stories left untold

So I keep you in my

Yellow note book in this cardboard box

In the attic of my parents house

To stop myself from thinking about you too much

To stop myself from thinking what I could've done

But every time

November rain got me thinking bout you

You slipped away

And you left me too soon

Rain and tears

Soak my black suit and boots

It's been a minute

But i still feel the blues

November rain got me thinking bout you

Took you away

And you left us too soon

Rain and tears

Soak my black suit and boots

Do anything

To take that one look at you

Tell myself a hundred times

There's nothing to be done

Helped auntie settle down

Before you end your run

Pray you left without the pain

You're up there n you're okay

Im so sorry

Wasn't there by your side

When you

Closed your eyes

Hate myself

For not saying goodbye

And it haunts me in my dreams

Every other night

I know that if you're here today

With a smile upon your face

You'll say son its all okay

But it's not okay

Christmas don't feel the same

I hate that empty chair on grannies table

When it's still your place

Times could pass

But some things never change

Too much I wanna say

Guess i'll start this shit off

With how was your day

Cause these words they're boulders

On my shoulder blades

You loved me soo

Yet I didn't say the same

Now every time in November

When it start pouring rain

Your voice begins to echo

Echo through my brain

You slipped away

And you left me too soon

Rain and tears

Soak my black suit and boots

It's been a minute

But I still feel the blues

November rain got me thinking bout you

Took you away

And you left us too soon

Rain and tears

Soak my black suit and boots

Do anything

To take that one look at you

Another year

Another month

Would be more than enough

Another day

Another hour

Maybe to catch things up

Turn back the clock

Let you know I loved you just as much

Maybe these tears will finally fucking start to stop

November rain got me thinking bout you

You slipped away

And you left me too soon

Rain and tears

Soak my black suit and boots

It's been a minute

But I still feel the blues

November rain got me thinking bout you

Took you away

And you left us too soon

Rain and tears

Soak my black suit and boots

Do anything

To take that one look at you x 2