The State I Am in

The State I Am In - Belle & Sebastian

I was puzzled by a dream it stayed with me all day in 1995

My brother had confessed he was gay

It took the heat off me for a while

He stood up with a sailor friend

Made it known upon my sisters wedding day

I got married in a rush to save a kid from being deported

Now she's in love

I was so touched I was moved to kick the crutches

From my crippled friend

She was not impressed cause I cured her on the Sabbath

I went to confess

When she saw the funny side we introduced my child bride

To whisky and gin

To whisky and gin

The priest in the booth had a photographic memory

For all he had heard

And he took all of my sins and he wrote a pocket novel called

The State I Am In

And so I gave myself to God

There was a pregnant pause before he said ok

Now I spend my day turning tables round In Marks & Spencer's

They don't seem to mind

I gave myself to sin

I gave myself to Providence

And I've been there and back again

The state that I am in

I gave myself to sin

I gave myself to Providence

And I've been there and back again

The state that I am in

Oh love of mine would you condescend to help me

Cause I'm stupid and blind

Oh and desperation is the Devil's work it is the folly of a boy's empty mind

Now I'm feeling dangerous riding on city buses for a hobby is sad

Why don't you lead me to a living end

I promised that I'd entertain my crippled friend

My crippled friend

I gave myself to sin

I gave myself to Providence

And I've been there and back again

The state that I am in

I gave myself to sin

I gave myself to Providence

And I've been there and back again

The state that I am in

I gave myself to sin

I gave myself to Providence

And I've been there and back again

The state that I am in

I gave myself to sin

I gave myself to Providence

And I've been there and back again

The state that I am in

I gave myself to sin

And I've been there and back again

Oh yeah