Forever (Explicit)

Yo

I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually

You will eventually

Some day

One day

I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually

And when you get older I hope you don't hold this s**t against me

I hope you understand I love you more than life itself

And this is nothin' but your daddy's thoughts when he was feelin' empty

And everything ain't always what it seems like on the outside

I fought so many tears so that you would never see the outcry

I never wanted kids until I lived and went through hard times

And became a man that fell in love with someone that my heart finds

But you know how that s**t go

Young and reckless

Different women part time

And I wasn't ready for that life yet

I was in my dark prime

Me and your moms ain't get along and she gave me a hard time

I really think that we just crossed paths at the wrong time

I wasn't happy when she said she was pregnant

Probably the worst news of my life

That s**t was so depressing

I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it

I'm sorry that I said that s**t

Yo I was trippin'

I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually

And when you get older I hope you don't hold this s**t against me

I'm sorry

Yo

And I never wanted a broken home to raise you from a distance

Yeah I'll admit it

I was scared of that type of commitment

Even hopes of a miscarriage

Anything bad that could happen

That'd get me out of that situation

I was livid

I felt like s**t about my thoughts

That wasn't me

I'm different

Plus I was dealing with some demons that I couldn't live with

I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it

I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually

And when you get older I hope you don't hold this s**t against me

Hope you don't hate me

I was selfish

I hope you forgive me

Hope you forgive me

And I still remember your baby shower like it was yesterday

And to your mom it was special

Me

Just another day

I wish that you could see the pictures

All the fake phony smilin'

Had to pretend that I was happy

Deep down I was cryin'

Ma asked if I was okay

I turned around and looked away

I was dryin' all my tears

Look back to say yeah

I was lyin'

Godd**n

How the hell I get here

This is it

This supposed to be my life

This ain't how I pictured it

I never felt so d**n alone

But it was more than often

One of the worst days of my life

And I ain't even lyin'

We argued when we came home

I blame myself for all this

I think that I was holding a grudge 'cause she ain't get an abortion

I'm sorry

D**n

And I know you can't understand my words but you will eventually

And when you get older I hope you don't hold this s**t against me

I can't believe I tried to hurt you

I hope you forgive me

Please

Please

And everything ain't always what it seems like on the outside

I fight so many tears so that you would never see the outcry

I sacrifice my life so you could live it

Peace

Want to give you things my father couldn't give to

Me

I think I was raised wrong

And that's just what it is to me

And if you ask him then his a*s gon' probably disagree

But whatever

Whatever

And nothing's ever made me cry as much as you

I swear

Your smile gives me motivation and some new ideas

My worst fear is always you not knowing who I am

'Cause I been on the road dreamchasing for you out here

I was the first thing that you opened your eyes to

And the last one that you said goodnight to

I went home and cried to

And I bawled my eyes out

And then watched you

Glad I got you

That's a blatant fact

And every negative thing I said I swear I take it back

I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually

And when you get older I hope you don't hold this s**t against me

I hope you understand I love you more than I love myself

And this is nothin' but your daddy's thoughts when he was feelin' empty

I was feelin' empty

I been feelin' empty

I put my emotions in this music when I'm feelin' empty

I hope you forgive me

Please

Please