It's Been Awhile (Explicit)

And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I first saw you

And it's been awhile

Since I could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been awhile

Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember

As f**ked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile

Since I could say that I wasn't addicted

And it's been awhile

Since I could say I love myself as well

And it's been awhile

Since I've gone and f**ked things up just like I always do

And it's been awhile

But all that s**t seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember

As f**ked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've gone and f**ked things up again

Why must I feel this way

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day

And it's been awhile

Since I could look at myself straight

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry

And it's been awhile

Since I've seen the way the candles light your face

And it's been awhile

But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember

As f**ked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father

He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry