PTSD (Explicit)

PTSD (Explicit) - Dreamville/Omen/Mereba/Deante' Hitchcock/St. Beauty

Lyrics by：Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexe Belle/Isis Valentino/Cameron Osteen

Composed by：Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexe Belle/Isis Valentino/Cameron Osteen

Used to bend for me like the steel of a hatchback

You was there for Q like a fourth grade class fact

Q was in for me never needed to ask that

PTSD now I'm having a flashback

Told me I'm sweet can't sleep in the trap trap

Enemy envy make the strap go brrat brrat

You the missing piece no peace when I sleep now

Used to practice peace finna sleep with the piece now

Know I'ma miss you long as I'm alive

You said you need to call me be sure I tried

I wish I didn't have a song to write

I know you probably follow me with your light

My mama told me faith is all that I need

And back in the day I would've agreed but now it's hard to believe

I still do not 'cause I want 'cause I need to

Believe in something greater than me without being able to see it

So f**k a watch I wear my heart on my sleeve

Nobody knows my sorrow nobody knows about the trouble I seen

A lot of dead n***as livin' through me shawty but not in the literal

Most 'em dead 'cause they ain't follow they dream

The power of a higher entity entered me

Mentally physically spiritually

I'm on a whole different energy

F**k the world but I need you to remember me

I had doubt in myself 'cause I used to fear

That you would look at me differently

If I ever changed I'm numb to it now I don't feel the same

A slave to the feeling I'm breaking the chains

Tryna balance out the joy the pain the sun the rain

My life and the fame done lost the game

The gift the shame my skin my veins

My soul done rained so much on my heart

Really I don't know where to start

The irony of finding self in the dark

My n***a truthfully feel like it's two of me

I should've been on that ark

A love-hate relationship with my thoughts

I'm tryna shine in my own light

The realest n***a left in my own right

Helping you with your vices

but can't seem to get a grip on my own life yeah

I was on my way down breakdowns breakthroughs

Spit up out my debut gotta say I stay true

Maybe why I stayed broke I been on a goose chase

Gotta swallow pride when they see me how the truth taste

Off the beaten path like Blueface

On the North Side had to be a Tuesday

Walkin' slow with your kids on a school day

Way past midnight suddenly my mood change

That's when the truth came in New York hearing rumors

My sister was homeless convinced her to often

Been years since we talked number changed

Saw you and my heart broke in a couple ways

I can't believe when I seen you I knew s**t was true

Stared in your eyes and I saw a different you

Skated off fast 'fore I could address it

Hope I ran into you 'fore we both get to Heaven

We 'ight we 'ight

You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light

We 'ight we 'ight

You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light ayy

Yeah hahahaha

We just kickin' it you know ayy woah

I'm here with all my friends

This is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

What

And the h*es

Hahahaha yeah

Said this is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

And the h*es

Can't forget about the h*es yeah

For the homies for the homies for the homies what

What

And the h*es

Ayy that s**t sound tight

This is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

What

And the h*es

Hahahaha yeah

Said this is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

And the h*es

Can't forget about the h*es yeah

For the homies for the homies for the homies what

What

And the h*es