House of Mirrors

House of Mirrors - Mary Lambert/Macklemore

Lyrics by：Mary Lambert/Ben Haggerty/Josh Karp

Composed by：Mary Lambert/Ben Haggerty/Josh Karp

My brain is a house divided

Rooms with too many doors

I can't tell you why

It's a home without a light

I spent most of my years

Trying to burn the roof

A starving arsonist

Oh I was

Waiting for the wind

I've seen people do crazy things

I've seen it in myself

But I'm not going back there

Planning my darkest hours

Locking all the windows

In a house full of mirrors

It's me against me

Locking all the windows

In a house full of mirrors

It's me against me

It's me fighting me

Yeah

I saw God on the sidewalk once

Walking towards me

I thought that I was dreaming

Put my hoodie on over my head

Tucked my neck

Crossed the street

Pretending I didn't see 'em

I keep fear close

And I keep love just out of arm's reach

Probably for a reason

'Cause if I touch it and learn it and study it

I'll know how shallow it really is

In the deep end

Why do I still wanna swim

Why can't I surrender to the voices within

Why can't losing it all and the wounds from the fall

Be enough to never do it again

I forget how bad it is

This fleeting happiness

Self sabotage not a means of balancing

Another Hail Mary to write my way out of Hell

But I don't think that I'm ready to fully forgive myself

The truth they admire but you are a liar

Psychiatrist wanting to put my psychopathic self on mood stabilizers

Ruled by desire

The prayer doesn't work if the pew is on fire like

I've seen people do crazy things

I've seen it in myself

But I'm not going back there

Planning my darkest hours

Locking all the windows in a house full of mirrors

It's me against me

Locking all the windows in a house full of mirrors

It's me against me

It's me fighting me