Just a Kid (Explicit)

Now damn, I'm just a kid

Thinking 'bout everything I ever done and did

Things I wanna do and things I've done lived

Everything slow but I really wanna live, now say

Damn, I'm just a kid

Thinking about everything I wanna do and did

Thinking bout if I go far or go big

Thinking about if I go dumb or go big

I'm a child just like no other

When I get scared I hide under covers

On a sad day man I really miss my mother

Only get one and you never get another

When I was a child I was barely loved

Mommy passed away and my daddy was on drugs

Granny took me in, with her 5 kids

And up until 8, that's where I always live

Granny got sick and then she passed away

And biggest heartbreak that I ever did take

Things were so good man, things were so great

And then in one day my whole life had changed

Suddenly I'm out here adopted

No one from my family gave me the option

To live with my family or someone familiar

Gave me away to a person wit hidden agendas

Passed to stranger who needed the money

She was a psycho, she never loved me

Damn my whole life everyone had to f*ck me

Wow, I guess I'm just lucky

Now damn, I'm just a kid

Thinking 'bout everything I ever done and did

Things I wanna do and things I've done lived

Everything slow but I really wanna live, now say

Damn, I'm just a kid

Thinking about everything I wanna do and did

Thinking bout if I go far or go big

Thinking about if I go dumb or go big

I never mattered, nobody ever cared

Gave me to strangers who claimed me as theirs

I was abused and I was aware

She told me to lie and say that I had fell

Damn, I got marks on my face

Disassociate and my thoughts go erased

Numb in my soul, I feel so out of place

Long way from home, I need out of this place

I'm the sad kid and the bad kid

I'm a disappointment and I'm average

Never make her proud, all I do is damage

Called me a burden, but she took advantage

Now damn, I'm just a kid

Thinking 'bout everything I ever done and did

Things I wanna do and things I've done lived

Everything slow but I really wanna live, now say

Damn, I'm just a kid

Thinking about everything I wanna do and did

Thinking bout if I go far or go big

Thinking about if I go dumb or go big

She said she loved me, she didn't liked me

I wasn't special and I wasn't likely

Wasn't that cute, no one would want me

Nobody cared in that, I was forgotten

Left as an orphan, no other options

She hit me again and I want her to stop it

The place of my soul has grown microscopic

They take me on weekends and act like they care

I lived in fear, I was young, I was scared

The scars from my childhood have followed me here

The pattern repeat and they come back right here

The pattern repeat and they come back right here