Fear / Loathing (Explicit)

When I heard the news

My hands are really shaking

Barely catch my breath

Oh s**t felt like I'm sinking

Things that I fear

It's finally happening

Not just my body

My soul too was trembling

I was so naive to think y'all just nothing

In fact I believed in y'all ain't doing something

In fact life's a *****she ****ed me like you do

Please tell me what is wrong what should I ****ing do

Now I live in constant fear

There goes my constant tear

Silently do my prayer

****you and your affair

This whole thing is insane

I wish you keeping me sane

I'm clueless of what's to gain

Besides my reign of pain

Do I gotta suffer or do I gotta bleed

A good comforting lover is something that I need

Try my best to recover

I won't do something misdeed

So heed my voice and read my lines

Still watching you from the sidelines

But nothing I can't do about all the crimes

You did 'cause you mastered the sublime

I think I need some extra time

To think that you're such a fraud

You're so fake crooked and I can't stand

The way you looked at him ****that

Then I'm asking you to be outcast

'Til I can be free at long last

You ****ed my girl behind my back

You lied to me this whole time

Did I do something wrong

Or you think that I'm so dumb

What's a God to a non believer

What's matter for the pople

What if I choose to be the evil

Went through the sleepless night and the deepest mind

Seeking for some reasons

Reaching out to realize that we're not the deal

I feel the fear

I heed to kneel

I see the unreal

Unclear Foolish vital doubt and suicidal thoughts

I kissed the scissors I spit on the mirror I slit the wrists

I split the differences I lit my cigarette

Wishing to be deceased by the smoke

Disease of the hope's invading like the Caesar of my season

I need to be healed but no one's reaching

I need you to speak up even though you won't see me in the face

I bleed when you sneak out we both know I can't run fast in your pace

Interphase too much time being wasted in the celly

Gotta wear a helmet 'cause if I don't I could never help it

Wish I could be that guy who pulled her from the abyss

But she just gonna be the one that I really hate to miss

Now I be reminiscin' how she light my way to bliss

She's smooth like Swiss cheese so thank God that she's exist

It's unclear I can't resist to assist you coexist

Because I think I'm an addict of befit to her soul kiss

Some of you might hatin' me I know y'all think I'm hypocrite

All I do is to admit that I'm wrong and I'm selfish

Just punch me with your strong hand if that would make you feel better

Even though it's a dead letter I'm aware that you'll bitter

You know there ain't gonna be later it's really now or forever

I know it's going to sever I'm welcome to be called The Wrecker

That pleasure was really treasure enter the center of the Hell

Hello Satan I've come again so please just ring the ****ing bell

****the together whatever this is the end of endeavor

Sorry it won't happen again whenever wherever I'm gone

You ****ed my girl behind my back

You lied to me this whole time

Did I do something wrong

Or you think that I'm so dumb