Be a Better Man (feat. Bishop Lamont & Blue Raspberry) (Explicit)

Be a Better Man (Explicit) - Apathy/Bishop Lamont/Blue Raspberry

I've been sinning since

I was seaman swimming fiending to be born

Didn't respect women my wisdom wouldn't be formed

Till my father dropped knowledge on me now I'm so torn

Read the Bible during day then at night I watch ****

I need to transform take the bull by the horn

But it's hard when I'm hard and the p**sy look warm

It's harder when I'm broke and that coke make money

Even harder when I'm hungry and there's air in my tummy

My outfit is bummy I try to avoid greed

But this money in my pocket give me everything I need

The **** and the clothes take a toll on my soul

But the soles in my Nike Air bubble got a hole

And my goal is the gold then the silver but I'm told

That it's old and a platinum grill will keep your drink cold

31 years old and I'm still being controlled

By the devils on the television eating at my soul

I'm ducking 5-0 get a **** to try blow

Listening to Lil' Wayne on my stere-stereo

A sinner I know but I figure I'll grow

One day when I'm grey and my life goes slow

I'm trying to be a better man

Trying to do the best I can

Trying to come up with a plan **** the money in my hand

Gotta find a way to pull my soul up out the garbage can

Depression is a ************

I said depression is a ************

Can't understand how don't understand why

Wake up sometimes feeling like you wanna die

Chest all heavy

Mind all froze

Bullet in your brain

Suck some pills overdose

Looking at the bottle do you really want to take 'em

Think it over all night in the morning DJ AM

Afraid to live

Afraid to die

Can't tell if God listening it's hard to yell that high

So you hit him on Skype can't get no reply

Yet the devil live next door always waving hi

Is he punishing me

Is he running from me

Is God real are y'all just ******* with me

My prayers don't get answered my life is in a slump

I'm a walking portapotty whole world take a dump

My friends ain't **** cause I ain't ****

And the ***** that I'm with she really ain't ****

And you are what you eat so she's really a ****

You good for nothing ****

But she keep me warm

Make me feel like I'm alive when she lay in my arms

Even though it's all a lie cause she don't want to go home

This ain't love it's more of a convenience

So we pretend we in love in real life we don't see it

Pull a Sixth Sense and just cover our eyes

Hope the ghost go away that keep haunting our lives

But you know it don't stop it's never gon' cease

Will you find peace of mind or just rest in peace

I'm trying to be a better man

Trying to do the best I can

Trying to come up with a plan **** the money in my hand

Gotta find a way to pull my soul up out the garbage can