Curious (Explicit)

Imagine if life was a game, imagine if all this is fake, imagine if everything ended and we go to heaven and meet all the greats

Imagine if there was no Drake, imagine if there was no Wayne, would rappers be garbage, would people be rappin, would everyone still sound the same

Man nobody knows it, all of the sudden, I’m overthinkin, sound like I’m trippin, came to the states feel like I’m goin Lindsay, tasted fluoride in this water I’m drinkin,

I don’t know how to make friends in this business, seem like they all wanna win but not with me, went to a party in hopes for some kisses, girl and her friends and they lookin delicious

I came up to em, there was four of em, there was one of me, I liked all of em, they liked none of me, all this bubbly, got me stumblin

Talked more with the one girl with the pretty fit, cuz I saw thru her and the wall she built, she actin all that, her friends were all wack,

I asked why she being cold to me and she said she don’t like guys like me

(Scoffs) Oh you mean smart, and funny, and has a big d**k? And doesn’t have to fake sh*t just to fit in, maybe we’re not meant to be acquainting,

5’9 confidence through the roof, not to mention I’m 19 so are you, we both still got lips let’s put it to use, then we smashed that night she gave me the flu

(*cough* god d*mmit/sh*t was not worth it)

I got sick and sad man it gave me the blues, I started thinkin bout life all the sh*t I been through, at 14 when I didn’t have friends or school,

or when I thought Nachos was Italian food, when I thought smoking cigarettes would make me cool, all the nights that I spent in my room, I guess we could always improve

I miss my family, miss my home, wish I could visit, a little more, the journey’s 20 hours flight too long,

I only get to see em on my phone, time does fly, I went from good wine to seein tears in my mom’s eyes, I don’t blame her though, she used to feed me now I live alone

Doing things she don’t know about but I’m always her angel (always her angel)

Man I !wonder what my mom was thinkin, when she realized that her son’s a little too famous, a little too anxious,

went from havin no friends now he’s singin on stages, I’m her youngest son she just hopin I that I know what to do with my paper

When I think about it sh*tt I don’t know how I could live without it, I just bought some sh*t at the grocery, some coconut water and some frozen meat, this gotta be good for my dopamine,

sometimes I still miss the nicotine, I’ve been nervous and vomiting,

doing shows don’t even sound fun to me, told the crowd that I had food poisoning, had a trash can side of the stage for me,

Man I don’t know why it happened to me

But I think I’m right where I’m supposed to be, I think it’s meant to be, I mean, I think I’m meant to be, put a kid with a dream in a room full of books he gon read even though none of it’s understood,

ay, shouts out to the ones doing things everyone was afraid or unable to do, man... the world needs more of you, the world needs more like you

And I heard that the simplest choice that you choose ain’t simple it’s actually huge, and the older I get man the more that its true, don’t believe in the hate just believe in the truth

I don’t, spend the bread I just know how to chase it, if the difference isn’t here I’ll make it, no I do not live for validation, f**k your comments and your momma’s basement,

Always rich because that’s what name is, greatest days are on a daily basis, RZA’s f**kin with me man I made it, If I could man I would never change sh*t